Friday, August 31, 2012

IVF: Lessons Learned

We told a few family members and close friends about the IVF. In hindsight, I wish we’d told NO ONE. 5 of those 7 people ask me on a daily basis if it worked. And if not, they ask how I am feeling. EVERY.SINGLE.DAY. I know they are just being concerned but if it DID work, its going to be a loooooong 9 months. I'm surprise being hopped up on so many hormones that I haven't spewed out some detail they truly don't want to hear. Although maybe I should start giving them gory details like my ovaries are so large, yesterday, when I pooped, the pain was so intense I blacked out (no lie, true story). Think maybe that will shut 'em up?

If you think the typical 2ww is hell, then newsflash: there is no bigger hell than the 2ww wait, then 3 week then 4 week wait after IVF.  I’ve had a weekly panic attack at this point. 

You no longer care how many ultrasound wands get shoved up your hoo ha.  I tried to count how many I’ve had thus far, and I couldn’t. Is that sad?

If the stress level of IVF is any indication of how insane of a parent I will be, my future kid(s) will be royally screwed.  I keep waiting for my RE’s office to call the men in white jackets. I expect a standing ovation and full on celebration if/when I am released from there.

The endless needles are the least painful part of IVF so no use in wasting complaints on how much they hurt.  Much worse things are in store. MUCH.

My husband has really shown himself in a new light. He was pretty unsure about all this nonsense but he has been right by my side every step of the way and really stepped up to the plate at home. Don’t tell him I told you but I found out he even knows how to work the dishwasher. The secret is out. NO GOING BACK NOW BABE!!  : )

I never in a million years dreamed this is where life would take me, but needless to say it has been the adventure of a lifetime! One I will do all over again in a heartbeat if I have to.  The strength you find in yourself is utterly amazing.